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[ Friday February 9th, 2007 | 6:36pm ] [ mood | worried ] My friend in the seventh grade showed me this poem she was given through a chain mail. My name is Misty I am but three, My eyes are swollen, I cannot see. I must be stupid, I must be bad, What else could have made My daddy so mad? I wish I were better I wish I weren't ugly, Then maybe my mommy Would still want to hug me. I can't speak at all I can't do a wrong Or else I'm locked up All the day long. When I awake I'm all alone The house is dark My folks aren't home. When my mommy does come I'll try and be nice, So maybe I'll get Just one whipping tonight. Don't make a sound! I just heard a car My daddy is back From Charlie's Bar. I hear him curse My name he calls, I press myself Against the wall. I try and hide From his evil eyes I'm so afraid now I'm starting to cry. He finds me weeping He shouts ugly words, He says it's my fault That he suffers at work He slaps me and hits me And yells at me more, I finally get free And I run for the door. He's already locked it And I start to bawl, He takes me and throws me Against the hard wall. I fall to the floor With my bones nearly broken, And my daddy continues With more bad words spoken. "I'm sorry!", I scream But it's now much too late His face has been twisted Into unimaginable hate The hurt and the pain Again and again Oh please God, have mercy! Oh please let it end! And he finally stops And heads for the door, While I lay there motionless Sprawled on the floor My name is Misty And I am but three, Tonight my daddy Murdered me. Reminds me of my insides. The inner me. Like my dad doesn't hit me physically but emotionally every bit of this i feel. Dead ya know. I try not to think bout what gunna be waitin for me when i get home but it bothers me every day. What's fucked is I can't hate him for it because it was how he was raised. He passes on what he learned. Theres no crossing his authorities and I have never been one to listen to them. Which is why we butt heads. I dont feel like i have to be my fathers bitch. respond to his bekon and call. if not he tears and tears at you hits you soooo hard. a few incidents stick in my head so bad i choke up. and realize that what makes me scared. I AM SCARED.

[ Thursday January 25th, 2007 | 6:05pm ] [ mood | worried ] i feel like im dyin mo fn way Reply | 2 | Comment

[ Saturday January 13th, 2007 | 1:55pm ] shakes head with half distorted smile a single tear roles down my cheek first the right and then the left i catch it with my top lip it continues to roll onto my tounge sharing a story of sadness i tell myself i gotta shake it off its suffocating me,my heart is piercing with pain my mind is throbing ::give in:: ::give in:: sigh what do i do give in give in NO as much as I want to I cant because I cant fail no more. *picks self back up* I might only be half here but atleast I am here. k.j. He who has faith has... an inward reservoir of courage, hope, confidence, calmness, and assuring trust that all will come out well - even though to the world it may appear to come out most badly. B. C. Forbes

B/C I think ur an ass now.... oh and a lier [ Sunday August 20th, 2006 | 11:18am ] [ mood | happy ] Strictly friends only: I will not add people I know in RL. I will not add you if you have been on my list and were removed. I will not add you so you have a longer list. To conclude: I just wont add ur ass. Reply | 15 | Comment

[ Monday July 10th, 2006 | 10:47pm ] First things first... this isnt a locked entry. Dont happen that often but i'm here to let the ppl who have me added that i dont have on my list to REMOVE me it really is annoying. If you want me to add you back just say so. next thing on the agenda... work was tiight. Last but not least...dayum. Comment

[ Wednesday June 14th, 2006 | 9:34pm ] Pray for my buddy.....please. Reply | 7 | Comment

the one of not many public posts [ Friday April 21st, 2006 | 9:15pm ] would you... []Would you die for me? []Would you lie for me? []Would you keep a secret for me? []Would you help me if I were in trouble? []If you knew I had a problem would you try and help? []Would you tell me like it is, or spare my feelings? In General.... []Do you know me well? []How long have we known each other? []Do you know my birthday? []Do you know a secret about me? []Have I ever made you mad? When? []Are you still mad at me? Yes or no... []Are we good friends? []Do you think I have problems? []Is there something about me that you hate? []Do you trust me? []Do I have ten toes? ask me five questions....... get to know me. Reply | 2 | Comment

[ Sunday January 29th, 2006 | 7:32pm ] I was looking at my other lj and realized that I miss a lot of the feelings I felt then. If you could change anything, get something off your chest, or tell someone something that you dont think you could possibly do, post it here. I feel pretty wierd right now. I just wanna know im not the only one out there with probs right now, or feeling strained for not being able to say what it is I want to say. POST ANONOMOUSLY if you wish...but most of all just post. Reply | 10 | Comment

te quiero [ Monday December 19th, 2005 | 9:31pm ] Amame Siempre estoy pensando, oh, en tu amor y nada más Cansada de este sueño, quiero hacerlo realidad Decidete mi amor estoy perdiendo el control El tiempo está pasando y no puedo esperar Porque estar sin ti es como no vivir Si tu me hicieras tuya yo sería feliz Whoa, ámame Me muero por besarte, ámame Whoa, ámame Ya no quiero rogarte, ámame Oh, yeah Es casi imposible de calmar esta pasión Te quiero tanto baby que me duele el corazón Porque cuando te miro no me puedo contener Quisiera abrasarte pa'que sientas mi querer Porque estar sin ti es como no vivir Si tu me hicieras tuya yo sería feliz [♥yo mirarte directamente a los ojos desir que te quirre para siempre.♥ tienes muy buena opinion de te. ♥ eso me haces reir.♥] Reply | 10 | Comment

[ Tuesday August 30th, 2005 | 6:40pm ] Im so over this shit... Reply | 4 | Comment

[ Tuesday August 16th, 2005 | 5:32pm ] UCAUTION Any stealing or tamporing with bubbles will result in an ass kickin*. Username: From Go-Quiz.com Reply | 2 | Comment

[ Sunday August 7th, 2005 | 6:09pm ] [ mood | cold ] I'm going to make this sooooo very simple :) comment and i'll most likely add back. TERMS AND CONDITIONS ARE AS FOLLOWS: 1)If you add me just to have a longer "friend list" I will let you know that i'm removing you. 2)You dont have to comment on EVERY SINGLE entry. It is really not necessary. 3)If you get lippy with me then.....GOOD I enjoy a little battle every once and a great while so feel free to bring it. 4)you must love bubbles. Loving bubbles is a most in my journal if you dont like it let the door hit you on your ass and fly into a plane on your way out. 5)Do Not I repeat DO NOT talk shit to my other lj friends. It pisses me off and I am not a force to be reconed with...I have a rubber hose!!!!! 6)You must comment on here with the words bubbles are awesome so that I know you have read the following. If you dont I will laugh at you in shame. :( I know it's a cruel cruel world out there but someones gotta dicipline your ass. Reply | 9 | Comment

[ Tuesday March 22nd, 2005 | 3:14pm ] Reply | 7 | Comment

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